Motherly Love

It’s nearly 6 a.m. and I’m slowly waking up to the tiny coo’s coming from the little person I brought into my bed when she woke up in the middle of the night. I open one eye and try to shove a binky in her mouth, hoping that she will immediately go right back to sleep. “Come on”, I think “just give me another hour.” Sometimes it works and sometimes I have to accept whatever amount of sleep I got and hope to catch a nap later in the day (but I don’t count on it). As unhappy as I am about having to wake up before my body wants me to, I can’t help but smile when I turn my head and see the sweetest little grin- consisting only of two bottom teeth.

The day starts with a feeding and a diaper change for her and a large iced coffee for me- you know, the essentials. As she sits up on her play mat she examines her many toys with her eyes, hands, and mouth. I spend about 10 minutes playing with her before I look around and make a mental list of all the things that need to get done around the house. And then something else catches my attention and I wish I had written that list down on paper.

When I start thinking about my week I realize that I have no idea what day it even is. So I yell out to the only other person in the house who can talk back, “Alexa, what’s the date today?”. She gives me the 411 and when it’s a Friday, a little piece of me dies as I think back to the days when a Friday was always something to look forward to.

I love my daughter more than I ever thought I could love another person, but being alone with her all the time can be- I’m just gonna say it… boring as hell. Saying this makes me feel bad. I look at how big she’s gotten and I can’t believe that what the millions of strangers have told me is actually true. “It goes by so fast!” Ugh I hate when the strangers are right.

It does go by so fast. Suddenly she won’t let me hold her a certain way, so I adjust to her needs without realizing that I’ll never hold her the same way again. I mean, I could but she’s bigger now and it’s not the same. Some days may be boring, but they are also filled with moments of pure happiness and amazement at the little person my baby is becoming. It also doesn’t hurt to have cool neighbors and friends that keep me sane.

At the end of the day, when we’re both in our beds, I go to sleep knowing that I will be woken up in a few hours. I know that I will have to get up, go into her room, and lift her out of her crib to bring her into my bed because I’m too dang tired to do it again. I go to bed knowing all of this and being totally okay with it because I also go to bed knowing that I’ll wake up to the sweetest little two-toothed grin.

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Motivation Monday #63

 

It’s Monday yet again and October is among us. The weather is cooling down and the holidays are approaching (yay!). I’ve been thinking a lot lately about self-discipline. It’s something that I think a lot of people could focus more on. We need to be able to hold ourselves accountable for our actions. We need to be our own biggest motivators.

Values such as loyalty and respect are of great importance to me. To the people I love, I will always be loyal. My friends, family, husband, they never have to worry that I wouldn’t stick by their side through difficult times. To all others I do my best to be respectful. Regardless of how much I dislike someone or how much I disagree with them, I will approach the situation with a level of respect because we are all human and none of us are perfect. These are just a couple of things that for me personally are very important.

We’re all just imperfect people trying to be strong in the world. Some do better than others, some give up entirely. It takes a little self-discipline to do just about anything that nourishes your life. Whether you’re going to school, trying to lose 10 pounds, keeping a marriage strong or just trying to keep it together without having a mental breakdown. You are the only one who can make the decision to not give up. Although things may happen to you that will break you down, it is up to you to build yourself back up again.

Whenever I feel like I’m losing grasp of a healthy lifestyle, I feel guilty. I’m not a health nut by any means. Even when I’m doing my best, I still enjoy a greasy burger and sweets from time to time. But the guilt that I feel is me holding myself accountable for my actions. Self-discipline is me actually doing something about it. No one can make me unhealthy except myself.

There’s a vast array of things that each of us can work on to be the best version of ourselves. Maybe you have a hard time controlling your anger, maybe you’re too quick to judge others. It’s possible that you feel like giving up on a long term goal or commitment. Maybe you’re sick of being unorganized or you have an addiction. Shoot, maybe you’re just an asshole and you want to change. Our parents did their part in disciplining us as children (some better than others) but now as adults, it’s our job to discipline ourselves.

None of us will ever be perfect but we can sure as hell try to be better. Do it for the people who love you but more importantly, do it for yourself. I know that everyone has something that they can work on and I hope that I’ve motivated you to be better.

Have a happy Monday!

 

Motivation Monday #47

Happy Monday!

Today I plan on setting goals for myself. I’ve realized that I feel the most in control of my life when I come up with a plan to reach my goals.

Time goes by and things change which makes it harder for us to stick to certain commitments we make for ourselves.

For a while I was working out at least 4 days a week and eating fairly healthy food. My body looked healthier and more importantly, I felt great!

I’ve slowly let go of my good habits because a lot of changes have taken place in my life over the last year. I no longer live in an apartment where the gym is a few steps away, when I started woking I didn’t have the time to plan meals like I used to so I started eating whatever was quick and easy. This is just one example of something that I want to become more diligent about again.

I also want to focus on my school work and start to complete my assignments before they’re due as I did when I first started instead of waiting till the last minute as I have been doing lately. I want to keep an organized and clean household because in my opinion, the cleaner my house is, the clearer my mind is. For example, I like to get the dishes done right away rather than having them sit out for days, then I can focus on doing everything else I need to do. And last but not least, I want to get back on track with my blogging. Writing is so important to me and it’s such a great outlet with which I can express myself in a positive way.

There are so many things in life that just take a little self-discipline. We can fall out of good habits and that’s okay, sometimes we need a little break. But it’s important that we always get back on track and make sure that were living our lives in a way that makes us happy.

I hope I’m not the only one who will use this Monday as a fresh start. You can do anything you set your mind to!

Have a beautiful week 🙂

Grateful for My Home

Thanksgiving is now exactly two weeks from today and despite any negative feelings you may have due to recent political activity, there are still so many wonderful reasons to be grateful.

I have already shared some of the most important reasons that I am grateful including family, friends and my husband. People always come before things, but as our parents always say “If you have a roof over your head and food on your plate, you have nothing to complain about”.

I feel very lucky to be a homeowner and I hope that our home will serve as a gathering place for family and friends. I want everyone to feel welcome and comfortable here because there’s no fun in having a home if you don’t fill it with love and laughter.

No matter where you live, always be grateful for that roof over your head.

What are you grateful for this week? 

Motivation Monday #42

I took a week off of blogging because I really just wasn’t feeling it. I’ve been so focused on other things lately that I started to lose the passion that pushes me to continue this little blog each week.

Anyway, it is Monday again and I have a whole list of things to get done today. So not only will I be trying to motivate you, but hopefully I’ll be able to motivate myself to get out of these super comfy fuzzy pajamas and be a productive human today.

I like that daylight savings ended this weekend because now I feel like I’m waking up really early even though I’m sleeping in an hour longer than usual. The days feel so long which means that I have no excuse to not get things done.

The holidays are upon us and that means we have things to look forward to. Good food, quality time with family, presents and decorations…. all of my favorite things!

So I think maybe the best way to motivate you on this Monday would be to tell you how many more Mondays you have to deal with until it’s time to celebrate.

There are only 2 more Mondays until Thanksgiving!

and

Only 6 more Mondays until Christmas! (better get started on your shopping)

 

Have a beautiful Monday and be productive!  🙂

Grateful for the Moment

Fall is in the air (well- some days) and we are one week closer to Thanksgiving, which means I get to share one more thing that makes me feel grateful. This week I am feeling grateful to be able to enjoy the moment.

Lately my mind has been e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e, one minute I’m thinking about bills and the fact that I need to find a job and the next minute I’m thinking about life and death. So when I find myself enjoying a moment with friends and my mind is not filled with worries, I feel grateful.

I think it’s common for people to stress themselves out just by thinking about things that they need or want to do. It is important to remember that it doesn’t take much in life to make you feel truly happy. It’s the moments we share with the people we love that are far more important than how much money we make or what kind of things we have.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and stay tuned for tomorrows weekly motivation!

Grateful for Friends

No I’m not talking about the T.V. show but if I’m being honest, I’m pretty grateful for that too!

I’m talking about the people who keep my life interesting, the ones who love me even though they don’t have to. The people who make me laugh and encourage me to be the best that I can be simply because they care about me. What a wonderful thing friendship is, just two complete strangers who create a bond like no other. If all else fails in life, at least we have our friends.

I have been blessed with so many wonderful friendships throughout my life so far. Some friends came and went but I have never forgotten the bonds that I had with them. I still think about all of them from time to time and hope they are doing well. Then there are the friends who came and stuck around, the people who have become more like family to me. For these people, I am eternally grateful! My life would simply not be the same without them and I truly believe that I am a better person just for knowing them.

I’ll be having dinner with two of my best friends tonight and although we are growing up and our lives are getting busier, I know that these two ladies will always be a part of my life. We’ve made it through distance, weddings, schools and new jobs with a bond just as strong or stronger than before.

This week goes out to all of the good friends out there! Be grateful that someone has chosen you to be their person!

 

Always be Grateful

I’ve made it through another year of life and rather than dreading getting older I’m feeling very grateful to be alive and surrounded by so much love. I spent my birthday, first by having a nice lunch with my grandma who has taken me out to lunch for almost every single birthday of my life. Later in the day, a few of my friends and some of my family joined me for a lovely birthday dinner at a Thai restaurant.

I sort of threw the plans together at the last minute because I almost forgot that it was my birthday. It was a Tuesday and I was still so wrapped up in the festivities of my brothers wedding over the weekend. Also, I never thought I would be this person.. but I can see how people lose enthusiasm for their birthdays the older they get.

This birthday was a wonderful reminder of what I should really be grateful for in life. I wasn’t expecting any gifts which made it even more of a treat when I actually got one. I wasn’t expecting so many people to be able to attend a last minute get-together but those who showed up made it really special. Even just a card with a sweet little note inside made me happy and reminded me that I am loved.

They say less is more, and in this case it certainly was. So since I have been reminded of all the little things in life that make me happy I’ve decided to start a gratitude train. I’ll think of something that I am grateful for and share with you each week until Thanksgiving. I encourage you to think of the things in your life that make you happy to be alive. You can share in a comment below or keep them to yourself, just remember that there is always something to be grateful for!

Motivation Monday #32

Happy Monday!

I hope everyone had as great of a weekend as I did. Saturday was my brothers wedding and it couldn’t have been more beautiful. It’s always a good time when you’re surrounded by family, friends, delicious food and good music (oh and free drinks are nice too)! Unfortunately the weekend seemed to fly by really fast but on the other hand, there is still plenty of celebrating for me to do!

In my family, this is the week of birthdays! My cousin Troy turns 17 today, I turn 24 tomorrow, my cousin Meghan turns 24 the next day, and my cousin Alexander turns 14 on the 25th!

I love telling people about that because I think it’s so cool and rare that my cousins and I have birthdays one day after another.

So on this particular Monday I’ll remind you that there is always something to celebrate and someone to celebrate with. Make it through your work day by reminding yourself that you’re one day closer to celebrating something, whether it’s a birthday, wedding, anniversary, graduation or any holiday, it is one day closer than it was yesterday!

Have a wonderful Monday and Happy Birthday to my awesome cousin Troy!

 

Motivation Monday #31

Happy Monday once again!

Today I’ll keep it short and sweet with a quick quote.

“Your life is a result of your choices. If you don’t like your life, it’s time to make some better choices”

It speaks for itself. Choose to have fun. Choose to be healthy. Choose to surround yourself with good people. Choose to spread positivity. Choose to love others. Choose a job you love. & Choose happiness.

Love to all! XOXO