Lifestyle Goals

In only a few days my little girl will be FIVE months old. Time is doing what it does best and flying right on by. To be honest, I sometimes find myself hoping for the time to pass more quickly which is pretty sad. I really only think that way when Blake is gone because everything is so much more fun when he’s around. But guess what? He’s gone a lot! Way too often for me to be putting life on hold until he’s back.

Having a baby has made me very aware of how quickly time goes by. I sort of get sad thinking that were just slowly growing older. I do my best to let all of the special moments sink in and to feel everything deeply. The soft baby skin, the giggles, the sweet baby scent, and looking into her big blue eyes wondering how I created something so incredibly amazing. I never want to forget how these things make me feel.

I recently came up with a list of “Lifestyle Goals” for myself and I plan on sharing each of those goals with you guys in future posts. They are simple things that I hope to incorporate into my daily life in order to better myself, and you can too! It’s sort of like a list of new years resolutions except these are things that I want to impact my life permanently. Kind of like when people say they’re not “on a diet” they’re really “changing their lifestyle”.

One of the things on that list is to say yes to new experiences. So I’ve decided I need to stop wishing for time to pass more quickly when Blake is gone and just take advantage of every day I get to spend living life. I’m pushing myself to get out more and to try new things even if I have to go alone… and by alone I mean, with Logan. I’ve always been the kind of person who would rather have company when going to new places. But now that I’ve gotten the hang of taking care of a baby on my own, I know that I can do almost anything on my own.

Sometimes my anxieties keep me from doing new things that seem scary. When I think about the fact that I am gong to die someday (even though that may just be the scariest thought of all) … It makes me realize that I better stop obsessing over what others might think, or what could go wrong and just experience all that I can while I’ve got the chance. Take a trip somewhere, hit the dance floor, make new friends…. whatever it is, just do it and HAVE FUN! I think people take life too seriously sometimes. School and work are great but it’s our experiences that make us who we are. What’s wonderful about that is, we get to choose our own experiences. Sure, sometimes things happen to us that we have no control over but we can ALWAYS choose to do something differently and I think that makes life really special.

 

 

 

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First Trimester

So I’m closing in on my first trimester of pregnancy and I thought I’d share my experience so far. ¬†Pregnancy is such a bizarre thing, I know there is a tiny human growing inside me but it still totally trips me out. I think since I don’t really have a baby bump yet, I still don’t feel like it’s 100% real. And that’s insane right? Because at this point I’ve been pregnant for three months already!

That’s three whole months of no sushi and no alcohol… which has really been hard because those are the two things Blake and I would do for fun on weekends. Now we go to sushi and I get to order the avocado cucumber roll while I watch Blake scarf down 20 pieces of salmon nigiri. You best believe I’m counting down the days till I can do the same. But sushi and alcohol aren’t the only things pregnant women have to stay away from, there are things I had no idea I couldn’t eat and once I found out, it only made me want them more. Anything unpasteurized, soft cheeses such as brie, LUNCH MEATS- (all I wanted was a subway sandwich after I heard that one), coffee (another tough one), raw sprouts, cookie dough (ok fine, I’ll bake it!) and Caesar dressing.. someone decided to tell me about that one when Caesar salad was one of the only things I could bare to eat.

Then there are the things that you think won’t even be an issue like going on rollercoasters, something I never do. But when I went to SeaWorld last weekend I realized for the first time how many rides they actually have as I sat on the sidelines watching everyone else have a blast. When I was at my moms place a couple weeks ago I really wanted to get in the pool but the weather was a little gloomy, so the jacuzzi sounded like a nice idea.. yeah, can’t do that either. It’s okay though, I know that 9 months of avoiding fun activities will seem like no big deal in the long run.

Luckily I didn’t get bad morning sickness. I think God knew I’d never have another kid if that were the case so he cut me a break there. Anyone who knows me is aware of my strong aversion towards vomiting. Instead, I have had some nausea but mostly I’ve just been SUPER TIRED. Like- I never ever used to take naps, now I take a nap probably every other day. I don’t really feel like myself and I hate that I don’t have the energy or willpower to get things done, but I suppose things could be worse. My sense of smell seemed really heightened at the same time that I was getting nausea, so I had to stay away from my dogs’ breath for a while there.

It’s interesting how every pregnancy is different. Some women start showing sooner than others and some get really bad morning sickness. I’ve met a few other pregnant girls from a group that I’m in and I’ve found it very interesting to hear about everyone’s unique experiences.

Even though I still sometimes don’t feel pregnant, the thing that really helped me wrap my brain around it was the ultrasound. They make you wait 8-10 weeks just to see your baby, which makes sense because they need to give it time to grow and make sure that the pregnancy will stick. But that had to be the longest 10 weeks of my life. Once I saw what was going on inside my body, I was filled with emotions. I really didn’t think that I would get emotional but seeing that little jellybean shaped baby in my belly was so amazing. It made things feel more real and also made me want to do everything possible¬†to make sure this baby is healthy.

So aside from my insane tiredness, I feel pretty good and I’m happy to be entering the second trimester on Monday. I feel truly blessed to have this opportunity to create a life. I know it wont be easy, but it will definitely be worth it.