Motherly Love

It’s nearly 6 a.m. and I’m slowly waking up to the tiny coo’s coming from the little person I brought into my bed when she woke up in the middle of the night. I open one eye and try to shove a binky in her mouth, hoping that she will immediately go right back to sleep. “Come on”, I think “just give me another hour.” Sometimes it works and sometimes I have to accept whatever amount of sleep I got and hope to catch a nap later in the day (but I don’t count on it). As unhappy as I am about having to wake up before my body wants me to, I can’t help but smile when I turn my head and see the sweetest little grin- consisting only of two bottom teeth.

The day starts with a feeding and a diaper change for her and a large iced coffee for me- you know, the essentials. As she sits up on her play mat she examines her many toys with her eyes, hands, and mouth. I spend about 10 minutes playing with her before I look around and make a mental list of all the things that need to get done around the house. And then something else catches my attention and I wish I had written that list down on paper.

When I start thinking about my week I realize that I have no idea what day it even is. So I yell out to the only other person in the house who can talk back, “Alexa, what’s the date today?”. She gives me the 411 and when it’s a Friday, a little piece of me dies as I think back to the days when a Friday was always something to look forward to.

I love my daughter more than I ever thought I could love another person, but being alone with her all the time can be- I’m just gonna say it… boring as hell. Saying this makes me feel bad. I look at how big she’s gotten and I can’t believe that what the millions of strangers have told me is actually true. “It goes by so fast!” Ugh I hate when the strangers are right.

It does go by so fast. Suddenly she won’t let me hold her a certain way, so I adjust to her needs without realizing that I’ll never hold her the same way again. I mean, I could but she’s bigger now and it’s not the same. Some days may be boring, but they are also filled with moments of pure happiness and amazement at the little person my baby is becoming. It also doesn’t hurt to have cool neighbors and friends that keep me sane.

At the end of the day, when we’re both in our beds, I go to sleep knowing that I will be woken up in a few hours. I know that I will have to get up, go into her room, and lift her out of her crib to bring her into my bed because I’m too dang tired to do it again. I go to bed knowing all of this and being totally okay with it because I also go to bed knowing that I’ll wake up to the sweetest little two-toothed grin.

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Milestones

Watching your child grow is probably the best reminder of how fleeting life is. As I mentioned in my last post, I’ve been trying to work on some lifestyle changes. One of the things on my list is to keep a journal to track Logan’s growth. I’ve always kept a journal but lately I have been so horrible about actually writing in it.

So as I lie awake in bed, not able to sleep because of the amount of caffeine I’ve consumed today.. I choose to write. Not in my journal because that would require lights and a pen, but here in my online diary for all to see!

April was a big month for little Logie. She was baptized, tried solid foods, got two bottom teeth, and started rolling all over the place. So far in May, she has begun to say things like “mamamama” and “dadadadada”, and she sits up on her own like a champ. She’s working on her dexterity all the time and I have so much fun watching her grab things and try to shove them in her mouth.

She’s been sleeping better too! How quickly I’ve forgotten having to wake up every couple of hours for feedings. She was waking up twice for the past couple of months but now she pretty much only wakes up once, usually around 4am. Then goes right back to sleep after I feed her. AND she’s starting to sleep in her crib.

All of these little milestones are amazing to watch. I see this little baby that I brought into the world and just observe as she becomes more and more intelligent each day. It happens so fast! Blake and I hear it ALL THE TIME… “enjoy it, they grow up so fast”. We actually laugh about how many times we hear that when we go out in public because it’s a ridiculous amount. But they really are growing so fast when they’re babies.

During the first three years of life, we learn more than we ever will in any other three years of our lives. That’s why the early stages of life are so important. Babies are constantly absorbing new information and they totally vibe off of the emotions and reactions of the adults around them. I don’t even like yelling at my dog in front of Logan because I don’t want her to think I’m yelling at her. Yelling is toxic and can have lasting effects on a child.

Granted, it’s bound to happen sooner or later when your kid is misbehaving but I think it’s important to try to discipline without yelling. Ever since I’ve become a parent, I think a lot about what a huge responsibility it is. We are responsible for raising a whole generation of people and if we collectively do a great job then the world will be a better place for everyone.

Motivation Monday #55

Happy Monday!

This month is almost over and June is on it’s way which means summer is just around the corner.¬†A lot of people will be graduating in June and moving on to the next chapter of their lives. How exciting!

That’s pretty much what life is right? We accomplish things so that we can move on to our next goal in life. The important thing to remember is to enjoy the journey.

So today I’ll share this quote to remind you to do exactly that:

“Don’t wait for everything to be perfect before you decide to enjoy your life.”

Life wont ever be perfect 100% of the time. It’s important to enjoy every moment you can because you’re sure to have more difficult times regardless of how hard you try to stay away form them. Enjoy life, enjoy this Monday and keep moving along ūüôā

Motivation Monday #38

Happy Monday! I’m getting a late start on my blogging today because I have been so busy doing things around the house. Since the day is already more than halfway through I’ll just remind you to keep up the good work!

Here’s a motivational quote to get you through the rest of the week..

“Don’t ruin a good today by thinking about a bad yesterday. Let it go”

Have a beautiful week!

Motivation Monday #36

Happy Monday!

I hope that everyone enjoyed their weekend. I definitely enjoyed moving into our new home this weekend but I forgot how messy it can get while unpacking. I am the type of person who wants things to look prefect right away, so it has been kind of hard sorting through everything and still having a ton of clutter to go through. I have to remind myself that it’s ok to take things one step at a time and that eventually everything will be exactly as I picture it to be.

I think this is good advice for life in general. When we set out to accomplish any sort of goal in life, we sometimes forget to enjoy the time that it takes to reach our goal. Instead we just wish that our hard work would be over so that we can reap the benefit of whatever it is that we are working towards.

On this gloomy Monday I want to remind you to enjoy the process. Whether you are in school, working towards getting a better position at work or trying to do anything that will benefit your quality of life, don’t forget to enjoy the journey that it takes to get there!

XOXO

Grateful for Friends

No I’m not talking about the T.V. show but if I’m being honest, I’m pretty grateful for that too!

I’m talking about the people who keep my life interesting, the ones who love me even though they don’t have to. The people who make me laugh and encourage me to be the best that I can be simply because they care about me. What a wonderful thing friendship is, just two complete strangers who create a bond like no other. If all else fails in life, at least we have our friends.

I have been blessed with so many wonderful friendships throughout my life so far. Some friends came and went but I have never forgotten the bonds that I had with them. I still think about all of them from time to time and hope they are doing well. Then there are the friends who came and stuck around, the people who have become more like family to me. For these people, I am eternally grateful! My life would simply not be the same without them and I truly believe that I am a better person just for knowing them.

I’ll be having dinner with two of my best friends tonight and although we are growing up and our lives are getting busier, I know that these two ladies will always be a part of my life. We’ve made it through distance, weddings, schools and new jobs with a bond just as strong or stronger than before.

This week goes out to all of the good friends out there! Be grateful that someone has chosen you to be their person!

 

Motivation Monday #35

Happy Monday everyone!!

Things are finally starting to cool down a bit here in southern California and just as the leaves are getting ready for change, so am I. In less than a week Blake and I will be moving into our first house! It’s so exciting but scary at the same time. For some reason I think I’m more nervous to move two hours away than I was to move to the other side of the country. I assume that it’s because this is a more permanent situation but I know that once we get down there and settle in it will be amazing to finally have our own home.

Today I want to encourage you to overcome your fears. I can be the type of person who lets the fear of the unknown get to me, I realize though that once I get through whatever it is that makes me nervous or scared I always feel better about myself for having at least tried.

Whether it is work related or something having to do with your personal life, it is always good to overcome your fears!

Have a beautiful Monday!

Grateful to be an American

As promised, I’m sharing one thing that I am grateful for each week and with today being the 15th anniversary of 9/11 I thought that this would be an appropriate subject.

Although it was a beyond tragic event, it brought people together and proved that a community can work together to make a bad situation a little better. Our men and women in uniform sacrificed so much to keep the rest of us safe and that alone is something to be grateful for.

There are so many countries in which people are lacking in basic human rights. It’s a shame that we can’t get everyone on the same page but it’s all the more reason to make sure that you don’t take your freedom for granted.

I’m proud to live in a country full of opportunity and I hope that we can continue to make America a wonderful place to live.

In memory of those who lost their lives on this day 15 years ago, we will never forget.

 

 

Motivation Monday #34

Happy Labor Day! I hope that all of you hard workers were able to spend this Monday relaxing.

Since you’ll most likely be getting back to work tomorrow, this is really more of a Motivation Tuesday than a Motivation Monday. But hopefully it will help you to keep a positive attitude¬†through the rest of the week.

So here goes,

“Don’t think about what can happen in a month.¬†Don’t think about what can happen in a year.¬†Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.”

Basically just do something each day to better yourself and have a lovely week!

Grateful for my Health

Incase you missed my last gratitude post, I promised to share something that I am grateful for each week until Thanksgiving and this week it’s my health.

For the past week or more I haven’t quite been feeling %100, I tweaked my neck somehow and my nerves were negatively affected. My arm was going numb and the pain traveled from the temple of my head all the way down to my shoulder blade. I was so scared that something more serious might be wrong with me that I was having anxiety attacks, sleeping horribly and barely eating.

After a massage and two visits to the chiropractor I’m feeling a LOT better!¬†I also realized that I felt better when I found a project to keep me busy or when I got out of the house and did something productive. It’s amazing how strongly your brain can affect the way that your body actually feels and it can be hard to fight those feelings of fear and anxiety but I always tried to remind myself that I will feel normal again soon.

It sometimes takes a little pain or sickness to remind you that you need to really take care of yourself and appreciate your health. So don’t forget to take good care of yourself and feel free to share what you’re grateful for this week!