Isn’t it funny how life takes unexpected turns. Well, maybe funny is not the proper word.
I was just thinking about what my life was like 5 years ago. I was 18 but I felt like I was so mature, I specifically remember thinking that very thought on my 18th birthday. I was fresh out of high school, with no idea what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. The only thing I was worried about was what I would be doing on the weekends and how I would be getting the alcohol that I was 3 years too young to purchase on my own. (That’s what older brothers are for). My parents were still married. I was dating Blake but the thought of marriage was so far out of sight due to our very hot and cold style of dating (meaning we broke up a lot). I was so content being exactly where I was and I had no desire to live anywhere other than the place I had lived my entire life. My friends were still 10 minutes away and life was good.
Five years later. I’m 23 years old and I can’t believe that I used to think that people in their 20’s were adults who had their lives together. I mean, I guess I have my life together in a sense but I still don’t have a career path to follow. Thinking back to how mature I thought I was and how mature I actually was is just embarrassing now. These days, instead of worrying about how I’ll be spending my weekends, I completely forget what day it is. I can now buy my own alcohol which is great but also much less thrilling and as each year passes my body reminds me is no subtle way that I can’t quite tolerate alcohol like I used to. My parents are going through a divorce, one that nobody saw coming. And don’t even get me started on how weird it is that they’re dating other people. I’m still with Blake and I definitely wouldn’t have guessed five years ago that we would be married today, but I sure am glad that we are. I’m living on the other side of the country and even though I’m not exactly loving it, I’m definitely grateful for the experience and the opportunity to make new friends and see new places. My friends and I are fully aware of how much our lives have changed and how rapidly were “growing up” these days. Everyone is moved out of the homes we were all so familiar with as kids and life is so much different.
Not better or worse, but so different and not at all what I would have expected as an 18 year old. Life will throw things at you that you don’t think you can handle but when the time comes, you just do and life goes on. So keep enjoying each moment.